Supatra's Fairy Fund: April 2013

Hello Everyone,

Not sure if anyone is still checking in here from time to time and it has been a rather long time since our last post. A lot has happened since October 2012 but one thing remains constant and that is the hole left in our lives with the passing of Supatra. There is not a day that goes by where I don't think of her or shed a tear for her. It probably does not help that we have here photos and things everywhere to remind us of her but I also can not bring myself to packing her things away as to me it would be like trying to forget she ever existed. I am so sad all the time yet there are times at work I have to forgo my sadness for the sake of those around me and pretend to be OK.

One bright spot in our lives finally arrived on the 12th March 2013 with the arrival of Surina, the little sister that Supatra always wanted. We hope she can see her, knows that she is now here with us, and that Supatra will be her guardian angel. Jason is very excited but I think he is a little disappointed that he can not play with his new sister just yet. He has been superb with Surina and is very gentle with her.

I am still in the process of finishing my French language course and was recently informed that we will have to move again in order for me to take on a new job in Kingston Ontario. It is not what we had hoped for considering we have not even been here for a year, just having come back from England and of course Jason will have to start all over again making new friends and getting used to his new surroundings. However, with luck we will be in Kingston for at least three years and maybe longer.

These last five months have been a first of many usually joyous occasions. Our first Halloween, Christmas, Mine and Punny's birthdays, Valentines, Supatra's birthday, and Easter without Supatra here. In the past we could always count on getting a gift or a hand crafted card from her on these occasions. We were always so appreciative of her thoughtfulness and skill in her crafts and ability to draw. Her cards and gifts would always come with a big hug and a heart melting smile...I miss them so much. She was and is so special to us. We often see pictures of her Friends in England and wonder what Supatra would be like now. How much taller would she be? How beautiful she would look. And then we think about Surina and wonder what it would have been like to have Surina with us while Supatra was still here. We know she would have been such a great big sister to Surina just like she was to Jason. Jason, whom she once said she wanted to marry and have children with. She loves her little brother.

This week has left me reflecting on Supatra and what could have been had she not fallen ill as we approached her birthday. We were so warmed by the knowledge that her school friends had not forgotten her as they held a crazy hat day on the 28th March to raise money for Brain Tumour UK in memory of Supatra. Additionally, her friends, their parents and the staff at Milton CE Primary school remembered her on her birthday by laying some flowers at her memorial tree in the school yard and releasing eight balloons representing the age she would now be. We too performed a little ceremony in Ottawa at a Buddhist Temple and also released eight balloons. Supatra's Oma and Aunt did something in Victoria Canada and an old family friend in Australia also took some time out to remember her. Finally, we also know that the parish in Milton held a special prayer for her on Good Friday - Thank you Sue Nunn. Its so good to know that she has not been forgotten and we are so appreciative of everyone that helped and participated remembering our little princess. Below are some pictures of these events.

I would also like to mention that our friend Natalie Gunner will be running the Brighton Marathon on 14th April 2013 to raise money for the Brain Tumour UK charity. Thank you Nat and best of luck, I know you can do it. If you can, please donate to the cause as Brain Tumour UK is doing good work in trying to find a cure for brain tumours which includes some DIPG research as well. You can donate at the following UK link:
https://mydonate.bt.com/fundraisers/nataliegunner1#.UVmMKBevJV8.facebook

xx Jorg
Love you and always in my thoughts Supatra!